Mold Phoenix on “The Mental Health of CIRS”
Holly from “Mold Phoenix” (who is a mental health professional) wrote an article called “The Mental Health of CIRS.”
From the article:
I can’t even catalog how many days and weeks were defined by “You have GOT to fucking be kidding me” kinds of challenges. I am this sick and exhausted and strung out and I have to remove everything from my basement and have a yard sale? Really? I am reacting badly to my car and I have to take a 3 hour round trip in it while wearing a ventilator to look at a new car? It takes me days to recover and I have to do that THREE TIMES? I have no functioning immune system and I have to go out into the world by myself where there are microbes and super-toxins worse than what I’m dealing with? Really?
No matter what other tasks I had to accomplish, I always also had to figure out where I could sleep that night. I had to wash bedding and change locations almost daily in order to simply be able to sleep a few hours and not be in pain. Everyday I tried to inch myself forward towards greater health but many of those days required that I get sicker in order to get closer to the goal. I had to go through Herculean efforts to rent out my house and acquire a new car and all new belongings and to miniaturize my life so that I could focus on only taking care of myself in an arid climate where I could still live outside.
Merge Waiting for Godot with the movie Brazil, add in The Birds and you’re getting there.
Yes, this illness was in my head. It would be in yours too.
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